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Wassalamu'alaikum -unemenel-

Alhamdulillah, my 4th school journey had officially come to an end. Three months before this graduate moment I have already started my new step in life, yes, I have worked in a national garment company for three months and still counting. I hope all of my struggle these all 20 years of life could help me through my next life phases. Life, please be good to me :)

XOXO -Ibranesa Nissreyasa S.Tr.Bns-

Pictures courtesy of MMD 38, retouched by me :)

It has been 2 months since i left my college lyfe and welcoming the real world. I never imagine that i will be graduated as a Textile and Fashion Merchandising bachelor before. There is a long story about my college hunting in that time, the short is, i got rejected many times. 4 yeas after got rejected by several universities, here i am, standing confidently as a Textile and Fashion Merchandising Bachelor (yeay). I'm proud to be the part of this Major because of the specific knowledge. I ever had interested to go out of STTT on my second semester, but when i deeply thought about it, i realized if i went out of here and choose to be a student in Communication Major and so on, there will be too much competitors in the time when i will be graduated. There'll be thousand competitors with non specific esoteric knowledge, while here, we're special, we're always needed, we're holding the branch of primary human needs science. Clothes. Everybody need clothes, even my doll. so why bother?


XOXO -unemenel-

Today I am going to start my #30dayswritingchallenge with a topic that I never concerned before, depression. I brought up this topic not because of I feel depressed myself,  no, no. The trigger was came from the story of my friend that told me if she's got diagnosed as a depressed patient by her psychiatrist.  I made this post based on her story, my friend who was a junior psychologist and also some articles which was written about depression cases.  So here is it.

Depression feels like
Happy people weren't always happy. Some of them maybe were really in a not okay condition, but they cover it with smile so we won't ask too much about their life. We will only saw that they were really happy without ever thought that they were broken inside. And this was happened towards my friend's life.  Like I said before, I will tell you what is it like to be depressed based on my friend's story.  Not so long ago (which is last Wednesday) my friend told me that she was depressed. Her depression was came from her social life and also came from her family's problem. She's a very social person which had to be always interacted with people, to help and to be helped. But all that social life was changed almost 180 percent when she got into her new campus, The most distinguish campus in Bandung. She said the environment  in her campus was too individualist and she couldn't  bear with that condition.  This environment changed her bit by bit. She became fragile, paranoid, easily panicked, and even had cramps all over her body just because she was stood in a crowded place. She became a person who was always over thinking about something which are happened around her. She always worried. She can be stressed just after a person said something to her. It became worse and worse, so she decided to go to a psychiatrist to get a therapy.

I'm new for this. I never had a friend who are depressed before, and I still don't understand why would a person be depressed. So I asked to my senior in my office which was a psychologist. The depression that my friend had was probably came because she can’t handle her expectation and her thought. Her over apprehensive bit by bit became a physical problem. That’s why she will easily faint or even had a sudden catalepsy in the middle of a crowded place because her body was as weakening  as her mind.  I agreed to that opinion.  As per American Psychological Association's study, a sad person has lower amount of immune in their body. This statement strengthened by Dr. Esther Sternberg's  opinion that a person who were always sad and worried are easily sick because many of the nerve pathways and molecules underlying both psychological responses and inflammatory disease are the same.

When I told my-psychologist-friend that my friend was already given some anti depressant by her psychiatrist, she startled. Then she explained to me, there are 4 levels of depression, the first one is frustration, the second is the hard frustration, and then depression,  the next level is hard depression, and the last one is loony (so hard tho find another word i/o crazy). A person which already suggested to consume anti depressant means his/her level of depression were already in the fourth level, which is the hard one. I was speechless, I didn't know that my friend was already in a really bad condition. After a long talk, my-psychologist-friend gave me some advises about mental health 101. When you already feel depressed and you thought you need someone to help you go through that step, go to a psychologist first and don't directly go to the psychiatrist. Psychologist do the therapy with mind setting, while psychiatrist do the therapy with drugs which were potentially addictive to you.

How we should act as a friend of a depressed person
I never thought I have a happy friend yet a fragile one. I did confuse how to deal with a friend with that condition. Did I have to be careful in my way of speak toward her? Did I have to be more understanding in this situation? Or did I just have to act normally like there's nothing happened?  my-psychologist-friend explained to me that we as a friend shouldn't have to be too understanding to the patient with depression. If we showed too much tolerance, it wouldn’t be good for the patient either and they will hardly learn how to deal with the situation. Just be normal, so he/she will learn how to handle people by himself/herself.  BUT, we still need to keep an eye on the patient so when he/she looks like can't handle the problem, we are there to conquer the bad thoughts. Really guys, depression is a problem that we should concern by now. There's an article said that in this era, there are a lot of people depressed just because they're feeling lonely.  We're a social creatures, feeling lonely does kill you slowly. So please go out and make friends. Search some friends that you can share you thought with. And don’t forget to be friend with a person who looks lonely.

Simple tips to reduce the depression
Alhamdulillah, one of my friend recommend me to read articles from an android app called CURIOSITY. In that application I found an interesting article about one of a simple way to alleviate the symptoms of depression. That article said that one way to keep depression at bay is to deprive out time of sleep. It said a little sleep deprivation may be an effective antidepressant according to the conclusion of 66 studies related to sleep and depression. That short sleeping time may make you wake up cranky, but it did kill the depression in nearly half of all depressed patient. These study was officially published in September 2017 in the Journal of Clinical Psychiatry.

This studies said, the half sleep deprivation (sleep for 3-4 hours a day) worked as effective as the total sleep deprivation (Woke up 36 hours nonstop) and it proved for being a faster depression killer than the kick of drugs. When anti depressant pills takes weeks (or probably longer) to kick into the effect, this sleep deprivation just need 24 hours to get the clinical improvement.


The interesting part is, as a Muslim, I already know that the best time of sleep is 4-5 hours a day, not eight. A lot of studies said the best time of sleep in a day is 8 hour, but our religion said we should take a little time of sleep. In Al-Qur'an there is a deliberation about the characteristic of pious people in surah Adz_Zariyat: 18-17 which said "Di Dunia mereka sedikit sekali tidur di waktu malam. Dan selalu memohonkan ampunan di waktu pagi sebelum fajar". Allah laid a strict injection on Prophet Muhammad not to sleep too much and he should replaced that time with Zikir. We suggested to wake up in the last third time of the day (which is about in 3 or 4 in the morning)and do the qiyamullail (Night pray) and continue with reading Al-Qur'an and worship Allah at least 15 minutes before we start our activities. Before the researcher do a lot of research about the most effective time of sleeping , we already been suggested to do the sleep deprivation by our God. MasyaAllah.  If you feel depressed in any case, you may try this simple therapy. Easy to do and not even cost you a penny.

XOXO -unemenel-

Bad bird #singlebaper

Sat, 26 November 2016

Doni and her dream house. (Me too!)

The unexpectedly good candid result of hers. In between picture isn't always bad,  is it?

I think I'm going to have this kinda front yard.

Double date, eh?

Like Father Like Son :)))))

Sun, 27 November 2016 Staying in mba jen's house to spent the night is the best choice at the time, some problems came and our plan to watch Ludruk/Ketoprak was not carried out because my daddy said that typical event is a bit dangerous for me to watch if there's no man who takes care of us. So, we didn't go even if we go, my daddy wouldn't know hehe (Parent's advises must be according to their experience and  I trust my parents on that) Exciting with village activity and it's ambience, so, I asked mba jen to bring me walk around the neighbourhood on early morning and there I am, in the middle of damn-so-wide rice field. From where I stood, I can see Mt. Merbabu and Mt. Merapi, but unfortunately, the cloud won't cooperate with me so I can't take pictures of it. yeaaa these photos below was the only thing I got at the time. hehe.

Morning mainstream activity in a village. Go to the rice field. yay!

Mbah-mbah who suddenly held my hand and kindly asked about my basic identity while she was passing by. Really love the way she hold and stroke my hand :)

I like that tree.

PT. Eco Smart Garment Indonesia Klego

It has been a month people called me an intern in a fabulous garment factory PT. Eco Smart Garment Indonesia which is one of PT. Pan Brother garment factory's branch. I was placed in cutting department by its Factory Manager because he thought i was good with math, lol. Well i like math but i can't say i'm good at it :)

I learned a lot in this department! and the most interesting subject that i liked to explore was the new software they use for their cutting management. It called Intellocut. I'll talk about this software in a seperate post so keep in touch!

Being an intern made me be more careful when i talk to a person, i do really think that they were my work colleague, so i have to be more respectful. Networking is something that you really need to build from the star of your career. Don't do hate speech, don't yell, don't underestimate.

My work colleagues there were very humble and very nice. They will explain all my question patiently until i relieved with the answers. They're smart and hard worker. In my first week, i was very exhausted to be in that department because there's no time for me to rest my mind in 8 hours except on 12 p.m. At the time i get back to my room, i slept right here and there.

Very interesting! can't wait for further experiences!

Canteen PT. Eco Smart Garment Indonesia Klego

My Boarding House (Mess PT. Eco Smart Garment Indonesia Klego)

Front Door PT. Eco Smart Garment Indonesia Klego

XOXO -unemenel-